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Have been listening to this Jolin Tsai cover of 《怀念》 for more than a decade (wow time flies, and did you know I was a hardcore Jolin fan?)

也许喜欢怀念你
多于看见你
我也许喜欢想象你
多于得到你

这首歌的确听了无数次，歌词颇有味道。
有的时候我们爱上的其实不是对方，而是对方所给予我们的感觉。

Well I could be listening to a song that could bring us together. You could be doing something that reminds you of me. After all, there should have been a lot of interactions between the duo for them to be constantly reminiscing about each other, right?

"Imagined communities"? Perhaps we could look at it the same way Benedict Anderson explains it:

as a socially constructed community, imagined by the people who perceive themselves as part of that group.

感性上，我们可以用间接的方式去怀念，去寻找这个人的气味和踪迹，然后在心里一次次的演练在一起的场景。

可是理性上呢，我们却又因为各种莫名其妙的原因，觉得彼此不可能在一起，所以反而会对真实的接触有所抗拒，担心有朝一日伤害到彼此，甚至玉石俱焚。

说来奇怪，越美丽的东西我们似乎越不敢碰。 It's an irony knowing that we are rejecting things beautiful because it seems "too good for us". It's like seeing something damn nice damn atas in a shop, you really really want it (and you can afford it), but you are afraid that you are unable to handle it. You are afraid of letting it down. Then you come up with an excuse, that it deserves something/someone better.

Seems selfless isn't it?

其实说白了，在这种情况下，我们爱的并不是那一个真实的人，而是他妈的那个追逐着幻影努力奔跑的自己罢了。



Painful much?
No.
But you will have to learn it the hard way.