sendiri

Still trying to come to terms with myself, which is honestly a very difficult job.
In this life I have let so many people down, I think there is no motivation for me to go anywhere else.
I cannot forget the things that I want to, yet I cannot keep those that I yearn.

锦瑟无端五十弦，一弦一柱思华年。
庄生晓梦迷蝴蝶，望帝春心托杜鹃。
沧海月明珠有泪，蓝田日暖玉生烟。
此情可待成追忆，只是当时已惘然。

Perhaps I am not as good as what you guys think, after all.
I'm also human.